A heart Full of Hope From Sarah With Love
I'm here because I was invited by a friend. I was diagnosed with anxiety a long time ago, twenty years, but I'm sure I've lived with it for a very long time. I took meds for a little while, but not for long. After some recent self-evaluation and a little research, I also believe I may have OCD. Speaking for myself only, I feel these things are simply part of the human condition and are manageable. As a homeschooling mom of eleven kids (yes I gave birth to all of them and they are all my husband's) and a wife to one demanding husband with his own issues, more than likely some PTSD and OCD as he is a Marine Corp veteran of foreign war (he served before and after 9/11), I've found that I just don't have the time to deal with the mounds of disorders that "could be". I give to God as much of it as I can and simply "do the damn thing".
There are days when I feel like being antisocial and hiding away and crying, but I can't. I take a little time for myself and just pull myself together. I know that there is something bigger than myself and I know that I will get there because I have faith in the goodness, graces, and mercies given to me through Christ. As tiring and hard and nearly unbearable as life gets every now and then, I remain content in who I am as a Christian woman, doing what I have been called to do, being a wife and stay at home homeschooling mom, sharing my stories through a blog that I've been working on for a little over a year and encouraging others in their journey.
At the end of the day, I take a deep breath, remember God's word and promises and pray even if it's just a simple, single "Thank you". One last note- to quote Prince, the artist and musician, just because I love the way it sounds and it's true, "Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today, to get through this thing called life." People need people because that's the way God designed us so when ya find a friend who understands and just "gets" you, even if you can't or don't always talk to that friend, remember that he or she is probably thinking of and or praying for you because YOU are important! Me in a nutshell.
XoXo
Sarah Arrellin